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Directions

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I feel that I am at a cross roads.

I have been on a wild ride since I started this deviantart account. I have gone from hopeful artist, to anime inspired art, to teen angst poetry, to literature, to creative poetry, to spoken word.

Spoken word...

I am trying to find myself in this type (no pun intended) of poetry.

Spoken word is a very interesting media because it allows one to make mistakes, to write and re-write without editing or changing the ending.
I write with a stream of consciousness these days that allows my brain to empty out all matter into my pen, and that pen allows me to create some of my best pieces, and most of my worst.
I hope you all continue to join me in my poetry maddness, and understand what the direction I take means. It's not a reinvention, it's finding exactly where I need to be.
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Hello deviants.
I'm not sure how to say this, but I'm feeling that this account is no longer me. After years of posting pictures, stories and more on here, I feel that I've grown into a different person. I'm not saying that I'm going to stop posting, because that would be foolish, but what I am saying is that I may be posting under a new account.
I feel as if the time I've spent working on what I've got here isn't where I am, I feel like I've learned so much, and done so much that I want to explore more options, and try new medias.
When I stopped drawing, it was because I gave up on myself, and I got into poetry and written word instead. Now I feel that I should try some other types of drawing. Maybe more cartoon-ish, less anime, maybe more realism. I don't know right now where I wanna go with that, but it'll definitely be somewhere. I want to take photos and post them on here, and then write poems and sonnets and post them. But I feel that this account has limited me. I've gone back and gotten rid of everything I hated, instead of scrapping it, and I think I just need to sit back, and start over again. Try my best to get at the raw emotions than edited, copied, and pasted feelings that I've been putting on here.
Moreover, I feel that these journal entries have gotten so trivial. I feel like I'm just complaining about stuff, and making myself look childish. I'm not a kid anymore, and I wanna start acting like an adult. So here goes nothing.

As of yet, I do not have a new account, but I will for sure post the link to it as soon as I get it up and running. I hope you all stay with me, and I hope that the next time you see my work, you'll be just as proud as I will be.

-Tyler
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So recently I've been thinking about the path in life I've chosen. Sounds profound, but I swear, it's nothing like that.
For those of you who don't know, I'm currently studying to be an Environmental Protection Technologist. I'm not entirely sure what they do, but I know they help the environment. And don't get me wrong, I like the environment, but sometimes I wonder if I'm doing the right thing.
I've spoken to a few people and they all tell me that second guessing yourself is a natural process in the College/University mindset, which I understand, but I really just think that maybe this isn't for me, but maybe it is? I dunno. Weird dilemma.
I'd love to be a musician, and quite frankly I could care less if I'm famous or not, I just want to sing and make music. My mother has already told me on numerous occasions that learning music now is just a waste of time, but I don't really think so. I'm almost thinking about finishing up my diploma in Winnipeg, and then moving to Brandon to major in voice at BU. Sounds crazy, I know. But maybe I'll be contented to go through a music program, and then be able to teach voice for a while, because I think that could be fun, and in the mean time have a few side projects going on, like the band I'm slowly forming.
Maybe this is really just me venting my frustrations, or maybe it's something I'm considering, I don't really know yet, but until then, I think it's something to think about. Because the future terrifies me, and I know that from here on out, it's all on me to be and do whatever is is I want to be and do.

-Tyler
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Hello all.
I've decided to change the journal update to something more uplifting. I'm sitting in my room in Brandon right now, and I don't think I've ever been more at peace. I'm just getting my juices going again, mellowing out to Jack Johnson and reading a book about Billie Holiday. So relaxing. I think it's nice to be able to get away from everything and just relax. Really helps get my mind working again, and gets me out of the dumps and back to a blissful reality.
I'm hoping to finish up some stuff either this week or next and get a few new posts up. Hope you guys stick around and see what I've got. Miss all of you. And sorry for the depressing posts. Sometimes I just need to get my frustrations and drama out via text, and poems/short stories/songs don't work well. This journal is a decent medium for that I think. But I'll try to keep those to a minimum.

Again, thanks for sticking with me.

-Tyler
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Intermission

2 min read
So here I am once again.
I've taken quite the hiatus.
Every time I come back here I feel more and more at home. with everything passing by me at lightning speed these days, it's good to know that the one place I feel the most accepted, and the most at home is still constant.
I also feel trapped. Trapped in the sense that I can't get out of my own head or memory. My sister's getting married next week and all I can think about is how great this is for her, but also how weird this is for me. I know I'm not losing someone in my family, that happened suddenly after my birthday. In fact, I'm gaining more family. I just can't help but think that things, like the way the world works, and the way relationships are, are just so complicated. That being said, I quite enjoy the relationship I'm currently in.
So, to feel less trapped, I feel that I should be doing something proactive. I'm going to start writing again, more poems, articles and the like. I already have a few rough articles I'd like to share with you guys, I just don't know what kind of medium I'm going to use. Be it posting them as journal entries, or posting them as works of art. It's hard to think of myself as a writer these days, but maybe it's time to wake up.

See you all hopefully very soon,
Tyler
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